Sunday, October 11, 2009

AGE IS JUST A NUMBER


Well to start with - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME =). I have stepped into 26 just day before yesterday.

Age has always been just a number in my life. I don't seem to grow old(mentally off course). Many of my friends have got married, some even have kids and few are waiting for their turn. But, I somehow feel that I am still that small girl of 15 or 16(not trying to tempt any of you there =) ).
My mom is almost fed up of asking me to grow up. She keeps reminding me my age, but like I said, age is just a number for me.

I really don't understand the meaning of growing up. I mean , how can someone grow up against ones will? I am probably like Peter Pan in Neverland - A mischievous boy who could fly and magically refused to grow up. I still like roaming around in my hot pants, love watching kiddy movies and adult issues seems to disturb my mental balance.

And I am so much in love with the kid, still alive within me. I cannot do away with it no matter how harsh a circumstances I am put into. I don't know if this is a disorder , but that's Me.

Now , let me give a small example. I used to work for a Software Company for the last 2 years (looking for a new job now). There, I was pretty sincere with my work. I was happy with the kind of work I was entrusted with, but the office culture didn't suit me. The people around me were so rude and cruel. They always tried to find faults with me and said that I still carried my college going attitude. I was so sick and tired listening to that crap. I used to feel alienated there among a host of so called grown ups.But, thankfully I had a group of friends there who were my partners in crime. =)

This year I had to pay a heavy price for getting old. Guess what? I didn't get any gift. Everybody around me is broke after the Durga Pujas. My boyfriend had skipped office and said that, that was my gift =( . I guess , grown ups think that way. My mom was busy with her work all day. So was Dad. So, we went out for dinner and that was their gift to me. I met my friends the day after and they too came without a gift. But moms are moms. She gave me 500 bucks to get myself a dress. And my boyfriend said that my gift is due for next month.

But, I think I am growing up too. I haven't squandered away the 500 bucks yet. I have saved it for paying off my credit card bills. Is this a part of growing up ? Knowing your priorities, getting more responsible towards life and not taking life for granted ? I guess.

I have somehow realized how important it is to grow up, when you are surrounded by so many, who wants to kill the child in you all the time. I am kind of prepared for this journey called life now.

So, Happy Birthday to me once again and Hey ! I am broke too right now, so this blog is my gift to my own little self who still refuses to grow up.

9 comments:

olive oyl said...

belated happy birthday, namesake! :D

Sohini said...

@ olive:= thanx namesake.....

Jaya said...

Belated Happy Birthday little girl.
You know what, with a Peter Pan heart like yours, you will always remain fresh and young even if the troubles and tortures of living eveyday create a few furrows on yr face.
Yes you will learn to conform to the rules of growing up but never, ever give up on yr desire to splash on that puddle even if u got dirty...
Here's wishing you a lifetime of oportunities to keep that child alive...Have a splash!
Mona Mashi

Tanmaya said...

hi!! i know exactly how you feel... even my b'day was not so long ago... and even i got zero gifts.... most of them did not even consider to wish me..:( its such a bore to grow up ain't it??

Sohini said...

@ Tanmaya :- I swear

Caveman said...

i know i'm a few days late, but here's wishing you all the very best in life. Belated Happy Birthday!!

...and 26 ain't old!!! if you think you're old, i'm ancient :)

Sohini said...

@ Caveman:- i dnt mind getting old only if ancient ppl like u dnt stop showering me wid gifts on my Bday...

Frustu said...

Food for thought .....being able to distinguish grown ups from 'not grown ups' is a process of growing up! What say?

Sohini said...

@ Sayan :- True , very true ....